I'm seriously so happy with my life right now. The last few months of school are so fun and being a senior makes it even better.. First of all, I have amazing grades, and that makes me amazingly happy. All A's and a B+. I'm really mostly happy because the only homework I have is in English, and I don't really mind English homework usually, so I get done with all my "responsibilites" very early in the day, and I can go to bed and chill when I want :) But continuing with the list: the one-act is going to be SO incredibly funny and beautiful. Thank you, Wayde, you're going to make a stupendous teacher :) The yearbook is due a week from Monday and it's SO beautiful! I can't stop just looking through it. I have so many pages that I just adore so much.. I'm so stoked for everyone to see it all. It's seriously everything that I wanted it to be. Aaaaand.. choir sounds amazing. And I'm excited for the writing conference. And the upcoming art shows. And I'm applying for a job.

Yay optimism :)

Oh and since my last journaling, I have decided upon my college plans. I'm moving to St. George and going to Dixie and I'm very very super duper excited about it so all my worries from my last post are gone too :)

I finished Animal Farm, and then borrowed a new book, and bought a new book. According to my visual bookshelf on facebook, I'm in the middle of eight books. I swear I will finish them all until I pick up anything else. Got it? Good.

If you ever feel inclined to visit the side of my brain that doesn't make sense..go here: http://sladkysneety.blogspot.com
 

This was probably the most pointless thing I've ever done, but I'm bored. I'm just waiting to go see Coraline today and I'm excited :)


PUT YOUR MUSIC PLAYER ON SHUFFLE AND ANSWER

Song # 1
Artist: Coldplay
Title: Cemeteries Of London
What is the very first lyric in the song? "at night they would go walking, til the breaking of the day."
Is that lyric significant to you in any way? not particularly.
What is the 4th line of the song? "save the nighttime for your weeping, your weeping."
Does that line make you think of a certain person? hmm no.
What is your favorite lyric in this song? there's not really one in particular...

Song # 2
Artist: Kings Of Convenience
Title: Winning A Battle, Losing The War
What is the last lyric of the song? "the day breaks and everything is new, everything is new."
Replace the 2nd word of that lyric with the word "potato": ...i refuse.
What is the 9th line of the song? this is SO hard D:
What if that lyric was the new theme song to Sesame Street? ...
What lyric in this song do you relate to the most or find to be the truest? "even though she doesn't want me around, i am on my feet to find her, to make sure that she is safe and sound." except with he instead of she...

Song # 3
Artist: Daphne Loves Derby
Title: Sun
What is the chorus of this song?: "sleep well, darling. wherever you are, i hope that you're happy tonight. and maybe you've found someone to love you right."
If someone you like sang the chorus to you would it be romantic? it's actually a somewhat sad song now that i'm analyzing it so deeply, but i suppose.
Replace the 10th word of the song with the word "beast":  i refuse.
What movie soundtrack would this song be perfect for?: dude, that takes way too much thought D:
Pick one word in the title of this song that you could name a pet: sun...? daphne or derby works though. those are actually both way cute :D

Song # 4
Artist: Death Cab For Cutie
Title: Cath...
What is the first lyric in this song?: "cath, she stands, with a well-intentioned man."
What if your opinion of the entire song was based on that one lyric? i would probably think that it was probably a great song with an actual story.
What lyric reminds you most of one of your exes? "'cause your heart was dying fast, and you didn't know what to do."
What if your #2 on myspace quoted the last lyric of the song to you?: i don't have top friends on myspace :P 
If this song title was a movie title, what would the movie be about? probably what the song is about.

Song # 5
Artist: The Used
Title: All That I've Got
What is the most offensive/vulgar lyric in this song?: it says "fuck me" once.
What if the 1st word in the song title was replaced with the word "hooker": hooker that i've got... nice.
What is the 10th line of the song? "and let me go back to sleep." this really all depends on where you cut off the "lines" of the song.
Does that lyric remind you of a situation you've been in? hm. maybe when i wanted to go to sleep?
Does this song have a deep meaning, or is it just straight forward? both i guess.

Song # 6
Artist: My Chemical Romance
Title: The End
What if your last name was included in the song title? i would think that my chemical romance was expressing their undying love for me, because no one else in the world has my last name :P
What is the 5th line in the song? "you might wake up and notice you're someone you're not."
Would that line be a good catch phrase for a commercial? these questions, i swear...
What is your favorite lyric in the entire song? pretty much the entire first part. it's so funereal.
Why is that your favorite? i just said :)

Song # 7
Artist: Houston Calls
Title: Elephant and Castle
What if the 1st word in the Artist name was replaced with the word "poop": i want to kill the maker of this survey.
What is the funniest lyric in this song? it's not a really very funny song.
What is the 8th lyric in this song? "to start all over again."
What if there was a resturant named from the 1st and 5th word of that lyric: well, "to again" would be a really stupid name, wouldn't i? almost as stupid as this survey, right?
Is the word "heart" anywhere in the entire song? i don't think so.

Song # 8
Artist: Cute Is What We Aim For
Title: Moan
What if Marilyn Manson did a cover of this song? i'd laugh. really hard.
What is the chorus of this song? "you have a moan all of your own, and i can feel it down to the bone."
What if your #5 myspace friend called you and sang the chorus to you? hahahaa i'd laugh :D
What is the last lyric in the song? it's the same as the chorus.
Is that the best lyric in the song? nahh.

Song # 9
Artist: Helena Bonham Carter, and other people
Title: Tears To Shed
Would the title of this song make a good title for a Stephen King book? maaaaybe.
What is the 12th line in this song? "no she doesn't compare. but she still breathes air."
Do you even like that lyric at all? yeah i love it :)
Do you know all the words to this song? not quite.
What kind of mood does this song put you in? it makes me want to go watch the corpse bride and every other tim burton movie.

Song # 10
Artist: The Beach Boys
Title: Don't Worry Baby
Replace the 3rd word in the Title with the word "beaver": ...
What is the 7th line in this song? "don't worry baby, don't worry baby."
Does that lyric bring up any memories? sort of... the whole song kind of does.
Would this song be good in a fight scene in movie? hahahaha no.
What is your favorite lyric in this song? i just like the way he sings "don't worry baby" :)
 

1) How is your boyfriend/girlfriend doing?
Missed Me - The Dresden Dolls

2) Do you have anything to pay off?
The Road I'm On - 3 Doors Down
that's deep o.O

3) What are you wearing right now?
Glory/Us - Acceptance
such a good song nasugi dn;saugi abnw;k

4) Do you know anyone that wants you dead?
Last Train Home - Lost Prophets

5) Do you believe that regrets are lessons learned?
Carolina - Matt Wertz

6) What are you listening to?
Honey Pie - The Beatles

7) Where did you first hear this song?
When "You're" Around - Motion City Soundtrack
after four years, i still have no idea why that word is in quotes.

8) Are you the one that normally makes the first move?
Cry Baby Cry - The Beatles

9) Would you sacrifice yourself for a friend?
I'm So Lonesome I Could Cry - Elvis Presley

10) Whats really annoying you right now?
Cabron - Red Hot Chili Peppers

11) State a fact about yourself.
Ghouls Night Out - The Misfits

12) What did you do today?
Cellar Doors, Donnie! - Mozart Season
maybe i'll watch Donnie Darko later :) it still boggles my mind that a band wrote a song about Donnie Darko... but it's a guilty pleasure.

13) Name your bestfriends.
Sick Or Sane - Senses Fail

14) What's a saying you scream when something bad happens?
Call and Return - Hellogoodbye

15)Are you always in a hurry?
It's So Simple - Saosin

16)Do you drink/smoke?
Bad Cops Bad Charaties - PlayRadioPlay!

17)Whats one horrible thing you do?
Holiday From Real - Jack's Mannequin

19)What do people label you as?
Take Cover - Acceptance

20) Do people see you as a preppy person?
Parisian Skies - Maximo Park

21) What do you hate most about the opposite sex?
Soul Meets Body - Death Cab For Cutie
hmmmm...

22)Whats your shoe size?
Gold Digger - Kanye West
lololol.

23)Do you currently work?
Out Through The Curtain - The Hush Sound
:)

26)What do you miss the most?
Don't Let Me Down - Across The Universe Soundtrack

29) Are you over your texts on your cellphone?
Starlight - Muse

30) Who do you know you can depend on?
Come Undone - Duran Duran

33) Whens your birthday?
Hourglass - The Hush Sound

34) Have any plans?
The Ride of the Rohirrim - Howard Shore/LOTR

35) Rate yourself from 1-10
We Stand - All That Remains

36)Why do people like you?
Yer Blues - The Beatles

38)Do you take any prescribed medication?
Hooray For Hollywood - Richard Whiting
best song EVAR :D

39)When you turn twenty-one you are going to do:
Last Night - Motion City Soundtrack

40)What are you going to do to prepare yourself for your future career?
In My Defense - Meese
 

I'm ready to go to California already :) I'm ready for this adventure in my life, and I know Blake, Marty, and Austin are too. It's seriously my dream. All on my own in an apartment with three boys - my best friends. I have it all pictured in my head... tons of partying, laughing, talking, and living. Casting the boring life I've lived for 17 years out to sea. Waking up every morning and being greeted by someone who will say "good morning Jamie, how'd you sleep? What are you up to today?" We're all figuring ourselves out, and college can wait. Who says you have to go to college right after high school? I know I'll go eventually. This is the time to do THIS, and I'm not letting it pass me by. California here we come!

ANYWAY I'm just stoked for Christmas break. Mostly the end of it - New Year's Eve: my favorite night of the year, and Blake's return. Hopefully I won't be forgotten before then so it's not a boring week and a half. I need to go Christmas shopping too. I'm getting everyone used books of poetry; I'm sure they'll like that. I'm excited to wrap presents. And I'm getting Mrs. Mitchell's flowers tomorrow :)

I just took my new senior pictures, and I'll get to see them online tomorrow. I'm very excited.

Oh and, maybe it's just me, but I don't think plagiarism is very sterling or very scholarly...

But despite everything that I am pissed off about, I'm managing it all pretty well. I think I'm just in a really good Christmas spirit, and constant excitement for the future. It feels so right. I truly hope the four of us all get on board and do this for ourselves and for each other.

It's not quite the way it once was... but I'm ready to start pretending that all those awkward little moments never occurred, that your fingers never filled the spaces in mine, that I never fell asleep on your shoulder, that you never kissed me upside down, that I never painted you a picture, that I never once cried over you, that we didn't waltz under the stars, that I never fell in love with you, and that my heart doesn't melt when you look at me, when you laugh, and when you sing. Oh especially when you sing...

No really, I'm fine! All I know is he inspired me to a point I've never reached before. He brought new life to my existence. He'll always be an incredibly inspiring person in my life... I never realized it until now, so there's the bright side.

"You stole a blue French horn for me..."

"I would've stolen you a whole orchestra."
 

“If a family clock was intrusted to him for repair . . . he would take upon himself to arrange a dance or funeral procession of fingers across its venerable face, representing twelve mirthful or melancholy hours."

I'm writing from my laptop :)) He's just about a week old and I'm thinking I will call him Charlie. He is certainly depriving me of sleep though.

Other than that... the play is exhausting. And I cannot think of any more to write. Good night.

What's the opposite of special? That's how I feel...

I'm not giving up.

My entire ceramics class looked through my sketchbook today :s It scared me a little, I wasn't sure what was actually in there haha. But it turned out ok. My fish painting is done, I'm moving onto a painting of the top banner of Brightwood's myspace. Go look at it, it sounds boring if I just describe it. It's actually beautiful.

The construction, the Every 15 Minutes program, all this stuff going on... it's crazy.

And ummmmm Jerell Scott not going to Bryant Park? That's CRAZY.

I want to get my senior pictures done while the leaves are changing colors :)

Ok. I'm done being angry with myself. Just reminding myself of his sweet voice and words made it all better... I will say sorry to his face and we'll move on. I need to chillax.

I will probably finish my KH painting tomorrow. It looks so good :)